life's like that

assalamulaikum..shld we fight life or shld we just ignore what happened and leave it just like that?..sometimes i dun understand me..sometimes i dunno what i want..sometimes i just dunno what's best for me..sometimes i dunno if i have done to the fullest..i guess, sometimes life's like that..ya Allah i ask for strength to go on with life..i ask for ur forgiveness..i ask 4 ur rahmat..i ask for ur hidayah..i ask everything i could ask for..bless me ya Allah..im so weak in the world full of lies..hypocrite..greediness..blindness..hatred..

hubby is suggesting for me to update my resume. he's been doing that for ages. im the one who ignored his suggestion. pity me now..stranded in my own stubbornness. now, im doing what he asked me to do. i have taken my current resume from my x-pc at 10th floor. need hubby to look at it tonight before we send it to whichever organisation concerned. i just dont want customer service field anymore to continue with. maybe something new ie admin..hr..so long it doesnt involved directly with customers..

in the process of upadating resume..syhhh

adam's 1st jap

can u imagine going to clinic for a 2mths jap for ur kid and never bring the kid's health book? thats what happened to me yesterday. all i can answer to doc was 'tak igt la doc'. what a shame! doc needs to jort down adam's weight (6.3kg) & length (60cm) before he could proceed with the jap. finally, he asked me to bring the book for next 3 mths jap. adam cried a bit after the injection. doc managed to console adam to be quite. we also didnt bring adam's milk for his next feeding. my father-in-law asked for a sample of milk from the counter..what a shame again! we assumed that the appointment wont be long before his next feeding..naa..i tell u..never assume. i also forgot to ask for adam's tounge medicine. adam's tounge become so white and its tick. we wonder how to get rid of the white thingy. heard that the thing is called 'kurap susu'. whatever. ill ask from miza when i meet her.

im bored doing my current work which is to update resolution. im not sure whats wait for me in wfm section. everything seems so unclear. i think bos really want to wait for that new sv to come before calling me back to wfm section..n im also wonder, will he ever call me? he said, im just temporarily being stationed here at *th floor until that sv arrives. frankly im doing nothing ok?
again i cant wait to go home to see adam...

sleepy morning

assalamualaikum..i drove to work this morning up till my office area before hubby continued his journey. he read harry porter besides me. i feel quite sleepy. woke up at 3am to perform my solat, followed by having my sahur, ironing work cloth and doing some laundry. i just have to do the house cores when i got up at that kind of hour..or else i ll prolong it over the weekend. by that time, the laundry will be more than 1 baskets already! cant afford till weekend coz there is not much room to hang our clothes. the only laundry that has to wait is adam's clothes. i need to hand-wash them to ensure there are clean enuf..u know la..baby's skin is sensitive enuf for any infection..

my mom came last nite. i think thats the answer for her dream early that morning. she missed adam and had to see him. we were at in-law's house when she called. she already at the car park in front of our apartment. she came alone. according to her, she was on her way back after sending a motorcycle key to my bro at one of the road near batu caves area. she brought along a pillow filled with kekabu. i remembered telling her about having a pillow in our car so that adam can sleep comfortably. didnt expect her to did one on her own. she bought the kekabu yesterday and sew the pillow herself. thanks mom! u r the best :) adam will surely love it.

i still have a relax day at office. not much to do. i just need to update complaint resolution based on the emails that i read. i dunno untill when coz bos said it will only be temporary before i will be doing what im supposed to do - wfm. to tell the truth, im not in favor in both. i ve loose energy and thinking skill i guess during 2 mths of ml..heheh. anyway, hope to catch up faster with my working skills soon..

m waiting for the job re-grading letter..wonder will there be any increment in my salary or not..if there is, then i can save some money for adam's akikah that we have planned in dec insyaAllah .. and alhamdullilah for all that Allah has gave us.

the work has not begun

i woke up at 3am since i havent perform my eesha pray. i feel totally exhausted but still spent time to surf the net, ironing my work cloth and ate my sahur. i went back sleep at almost 4am. adam only cried at 1am and 5am last nite..time for feeding. he has a sound sleep i guess and dont want to wake up. according to nenek, adam didnt 'berak' at all in the day. to our surprise, adam only did it once hubby n me came back from work. he really wanna give it to us to wash hah! :)

i didnt do much work at office on my 1st day. im assigned to clear the back log work at service support department by boss. the current sv has resigned. they are waiting for a new one. mean while, i have to support them accordingly. to tell u the truth, i didnt help much coz i dont have the required info needed. im supposed to update complaint resolution but my name was not in the loop the last 2 mths. so how do i get update from? i ended up reading and deleting my emails the whole day. this is so boring..my work has not begun..im telling u, if it has started, i dont even have time to update my blog..

mom texted me early in the morning. she dreamt of me bringing adam home. she asked me what is that supposed to mean. i replied that the dream means nothing. maybe she just miss adam..thats all. she didnt reply. i assume she accepts my answer.

1st after 2

its my 1st day of work after 2 mth of ml. adam cried 3 times last nite. took my hubby's n my time to entertain him until he went to sleep again. i prayed before sleep that he'll be a nice boy..only wakes up when necessary and sleeps when he has been feed accordingly. he did that until after his 2nd feeding. his woke up an hour later. both hubby n me has to get up too. i made 2 more oz and feed him. at about 6.15am, he cried again. made another 3 auns. i cant bear to hear him crying eventhougt its not abt time yet. then i 'tepuk' him untill he falled asleep again before i made myself preparing for work. i woke hubby up at 6.45am and found him sleep again 10 min later. im halfly done with myself when adam cried again. we played with adam interchangeably while making ourselves ready to work. we went down at 7.30am, heading to in-law's house. 5-0-6 will be adam's nursery at the moment..at least until he's big enuf to be left at 'real' nursery. adam wasnt crying when we left him. i guess he's too sleepy and need to continue his dream. be a good boy ok adam..dont ask too much from nenek or atuk..i called mom in-law during my break. what a relief to hear that adam is under a good care of her. i cant wait to come home...!