tribute..

thanks to her..my mom..been patiently taught me about life..about love..about everything..last thursday was her 59th birthday..i just sent her sms..no gift nor present..deep down, i really wanted to buy her something..and i stopped and think..she owned everything that she wants..she used to work..she hold her own money like i do now..hmmm..

u know what i wanns do? i want to buy her times..i want to spend more times with her..i used to accompany her when i was single..i listened to her stories of madness, sadness, happiness..in which i have less time doing it now since im married..sometimes i wonder, have i been a good daughter to her?

she fulfilled all of my request during my teenage time..why cant i do the same for her now? i used to hurt her feeling..a lot..still she forgive me..she forget all my fault..she still has all the love to give..can i do the same for my children?

mom, if u can hear me, i just want to say i love u so much..being a daughter to you, yes i admit, there were times when we are not in the same opinion..but it doesnt make us farther..mom, pls forgive me for all my wrong doing..my stubbornness..my ego..my carelessness..i promise to be a good mama to my children..because of u mak..

love..

everybody has their own way to express love. but how does one show that there is no more left? they say it verbally..or show it using body language..? or how do someone confirms that there is no more love left..in his/her heart? i heard ppl says, falling in love is easy..but to maintain the feeling, it will take lots n lots of effort..and the effort must come from both parties..it takes 2 to tango right?

im not sure if im the ignorant type..or expressive type..or typical type..when it comes to relationship..or love per say..but from what i know, i didnt say much..sometimes i didnt bother..or shld i say, tried not to bother coz im tired of thinking that im at the guilty side..so when i feel im guilty, ill keep myself quite..tried to defend myself deep inside when infact i know i was wrong..how can both parties are correct..and wrong at the same time? the fact that im wrong is clear..and the fact that the other party is correct is also obvious..whats left to say..? im clueless..im sorry..im guilty..im crying..i plead for i dont know how many thousand chances to improve situation..

will u forgive me?

fuh!..

it has been quite sometimes..i am very sure that's the password..but how come it doesnt allow me to go in? luckly, after some not-so-hard-work, i managed to create new password..n that's why im here to continue the journey of this blog..

hey there my blog..miss u..i really do..who in the world would miss her own blog? is there no more human being that is still alive to be missed? keh3x..i miss to write..thats exactly what i mean. i love to write but sometimes i cant put my thots into words..sometimes i cant express myself clearly..sometimes words just got into ways..sometime im just lazy!

being a working mother to one son (so far)..a wife..surely somehow make me a busy person..but i didnt cook @ home..so what's the big deal? its true i didnt cook but it doesnt mean i didnt wash dishes, sweep the house, moop the floor, ironing cloths etc etc..which still makes im a busy mom :)

i wanted to write so much about life..about me..about anything..i'll continue blogging so long im still breathing in and out..that will also depend so much on my mood keh3x

latest updates
work place - im still working in the same place but different team..its my 8th anniversary ok!
report duty - im reporting to my x-colleague..i mean we r still colleage..but we used to be in the same level but she's 1 step higher than me now..
son - he's 7 mths now..may visit his blog - updated by hubby n me of course :P
hubby - waiting for assessment to job upgrading this month
others - joined 'tw' last year but only managed to make sale this month

guess that's all fr now..