never thot it would be this hard

assalamualaikum..i know life is not easy but i just dont want to make it hard..how if it has become harder? am i able to handle that? i know hubby is around but can he be there all the time?

im suppose to get my new car this week but the loan processing took up till a week without any news. hubby called pb call centre and inquired this afternoon. later i received call from setapak branch with regards to my loan. i have succeed the credit checking but the thing is, they only want to finance upto rm45k..i have another auto loan under my name with other financial institution..where are we going to find another rm3k..we have been waiting for a week..hubby has gone thru all the hasle..believe me, it isnt that easy..and what i heard today is this? this is so frustrating..:( i have dreamt of driving the car but now..i dunno if ever can make my dream come true..

i want..

assalamualaikum..im on leave today..went for that postponed appointment with my gynea at apsh. dunno why i cant open my eyes this morning..hubby had few hard attempts to wake me up..told u it was hard..hard enuf that both of us cant wake up! finally we are ready to leave for the appointment at 10.30am. luckily the traffic was smooth. we reached there 10 minutes later. i had to go alone. hubby went to somewhere for sigh seeing.

it was then i realized i left my mobile at home when i to switch it to lower vol. as soon as i get the gl being verified, i called hubby to inform him. reached gynea's office at 10.47am. was called in for check up 1 hour later. it is so true when people say that waiting is a suffercation! doc said my womb already is normal position..she did that scanning thingy.. she said i have to wait till 2-3 months to get preggy. she said the womb needs to be strong enuf in order for me to conceive again. i cant hardly wait doc! im not that young anymore..my heart screamed. i want it doc..i just want myself to be pregnant..

we headed to pc in jln tar after the check up. hubby been wanted to buy new slacks for so long. we climbed up till 2nd floor and got into this friendly chinese shop. he talked and talked and talked from the time we went in till time we left the shop. hubby bought 2 slacks. only be ready to be collected a week later. oh! forgot to tell that i bought hubby lunch today at manhattan. just fyi, we didnt have our bfast this morning. we were so starving till we finish up our lunch..in silence..we didnt talk much..we enjoyed every bites of our food.

stop for now. want to watch iris..see ya!

happy for her

assalamualaikum..she wrote in her blog..she is in her adjusting period..from alone..to not alone..she asked readers to guess..i think her hubby is back..if thats true, im really happy for her..finally they are together again..n i hope its for eternity ninie :) i really believe, when u r married, ur place is next to ur spouse..not far away..not away from sight..n i dunno how ninie manage that distance..u r strong my friend..too strong..i dunno if i ever be like u..

im hooked up with those online show at tv3 right now..if u guess it correctly, yes im following the q-spa series :) i wonder when will they do for csi *wink* im also watching the online series from gua.com.my thats going to end soon. hubby once asked me what did i do while waiting for him..well, before i knew this online movie thingy, i will update my blog, read other people's blog, visit other people's fp, search for subject that is on my head, log in to my frienster, facebook or just deleting/reading/fwding emails.

ive got appointment 2mrw with gynea in apsh. not sure what is it for.. i told hubby that im too lazy to go.. as always, he will encourage me to do it for my own good..only Allah knows what will happen to me next right? i think this is just a follow-up check up coz i was experiencing miscarriage last oct..ok, ill do it hubby..for me..for u..for us..n for our future baby insyaAllah..

in search of a tl

assalamualaikum..im in search of a capable & reliable tl now. my former tl has been promoted. im doing more jobs and actually i dont mind at all. what i mind is that when it comes to product inquiry that im not familiar about, thats when my leg got shaky :) experienced tl might be able to assist me a lot in this area..till then, i have to ask around..im not superwomen and knows everything..

because of my dilemma of choosing the right candidates (i have few names that has been shortlisted), i have hurt someone's heart. im sorry su..i dont mean to make u feel uneasy by taking malina during ur teaching season. its just that i need her to justify my choice of tl. should nothing goes wrong, im going to pull out of her staff to be my tl..arghh u dont have to know all that..its not important after all..most important, i have screwed up ur plan that u have scheduled earlier..i feel so bad now..feels like running to u and say im sorry..im sorry..i sorry..im sorry sumarma..well..i cant turn back the time right..what i can do now is to see u personally this monday and say..im sorry and not to be rude again in future..i would also be upset if i were in ur shoes..:(

virtual meeting

assalamualaikum..ive got some works to do but i think i will delay it ..till tomorrow :) cant help this feeling of 'want-to-know' the content of ninie's blog. i found it yesterday's evening while waiting for hubby to fetch me. when i first read it, cant beleive its her..i didnt look at the pic at the beginning..as i read the first few entries, i came to wonder, why did her story sounded so familiar especially when she wrote that her hubby is currently working in dubai..when i looked at some of pics that she posted, it was confirmed & true, nothing but the truth, its ninie.

she has been a close friend of mine during my college time. we share secrets, laugh, tears, food, notes (heheee) together. when we started our work life, we go our separate ways but still we keep in touch. miss those chicky memories ninie ;-)..and really hope that our friendship will last forever and ever. currently we are staying nearby. she has few times proposed for a breakfast or lunch together. i said ok and just gimme a date. so far, none of us made the move.

was having my pms session this morning with lilian. a bit scared and brave at the same time as i have commited few not so good incident.. i mean, i was evaluated as a whole. if my staff received complaint, ill be penalised. if i cant finish assignment on time, ill get penalised. if i overlooked staff's error, ill get penalised. if staff made a minor error in the forms or thru system, ill get penalised. u see, everything is inter-related. i ended up the session with not-so-tension mood because i know where i stand. no matter what i say, it wont fix the past. whats gone, is gone. we can never turn back the time. what we can do is to improve curent condition and not to repeat the same mistake. chayokkkkk!!

almost end of 2007

assalamualaikum..my first entry this month..i hardly find time to update this blog. thanks to regular reader (i luv u hubby) who has given me support to continue my writing :)

im still at office. planned to go back home after solat magrib..should be ok so long its not after solat isyak..i have nothing to watch tonite unlike mondays (dunia baru 3) and tuesdays (jelatang & kisah kaisara). wonder when is the latest season of csi las vegas will be shown on axn?

im craving for that moist choc cake. had it yesterday at birthday party but not a moist one. also ate some fried macarony & bee hoon & fruits..dunno why i still feel hungry when we reached at in-law's. hubby already gave an 'enuf-of-eating-for-d-day' signal but i just cant help it. had some rice and 'ikan 3 rasa' cooked by ayu. at home, my final meal was mango while watching kaisara & iris. left some for hubby as he was attending to his father's pc problem.

on the slimming program progress..im still waiting for some budget. hopefully to save some money soon. we are planning to perform umrah and to buy own house next year. need to put aside budget for that too. hmmmm i just wish i had a credit card but true enuf, im still afraid of overspending. hubby, maybe u could give some tips?

back to office, im now without a tl to assist me in daily task. darishini has been promoted. kak ina has sent email on the vacancy. 5 staff have responded. she has fwd to me the names but its hard for me to make decision because i have not work with these ppl before. lilian has helped to make my decison easier by sending email to the relevant supervisors, asking for their opinion in terms of candidates' strength. i have one person in mind since his supervisor has given high rating. im offering him the vacancy but he has yet to reply me since he's on rest day. will wait for his answer tomorrow.

my buddy? yes, ct is here since end of last month. as an experienced TL, later been promoted to SV, i find her very useful & helpful :P helped her to update my x-team's report for last month in order to reduce her headache. she also needs to update her x-team monthly report maaa...in short, im updating 2 teams monthly report but only this time.

in other occasion, my team members are decreasing to only 7 of them today. one of them was on awol (absent with out leave) since monday. called her yesterday and someone hung up. called her today, same thing. ct gave me idea to check from her personal files. found her husband's number & called for clarification. staff is currently in india, accompanying her mother for medical treatment. will only back after 3 months. i wonder why she didnt tell me. makes me more wonder when she left her access and staff card on steven's table. steven is our admin sv. why she did that? why? and now we have no choice but to terminate her service immediately.